I must confess on this last day of December that I don’t remember much of this year. Things happened, I traveled, so many relatives stayed in our home, I made a lot of money. I spent a lot of money. I had the perfect hassle free vacation in Dallas with my chingu. I went on a health oddessy. I came out with closer friends at work. I saw and met Hobi, I saw Jin and am mega impressed with his performance. I stopped going to cupsleeves.

I had a birthday celebration at Iron Age. I perfected my skin care routine. I ace’d my sleeping hygiene enough to say I didn’t have insomnia as bad as the last few years. I pushed myself to write Mikrokosmos. I bought a laundry and new oven. We had a very bonga Thanksgiving day. I spent a lot of time relaxing with my parents at the beach. I think I got some sun. I cut a friendship.

I bought a lot of stuff; so much that I am in full stock and don’t really need anything more. I saw some movies with my parents, the Hobi movie with my friends, spent a little time with my friends. Kept in contact through group chats. I put myself first: I healed my gums, I normalized my blood pressure, I’m taking supplements, I have follow up appointments, I have a new eye glass prescription and I won over my cold with a record breaking 2 days of symptoms only.

So how am I coming out this year? With a bunch of events that I don’t remember. I remember them but somehow I feel like they’re distant memories more than anything else. I basically lived at work most of late spring into late summer. I did a great job at that but it made my summer pass. My Fall also passed by although I was able to collect leaves and go on a nature walk.

My hygiene is pretty record. I bought a bomb ass record straightening straightener. I have like four spell oils. I got out of the inactive list for a while at church. I went with my cousin to the anime convention. I had so much fun renting library books. I saved a lot of money. I fell for Yona of the Dawn and had a blast reading that too. Some books had me kicking my feet.

I learned to gift less and conserve more on myself and on those (my parents) who truly matter to me. I sorta lost track of the guys and I’m feeling a little detachment; evidenced by using my time off toward other things like watching shows. I was still overjoyed when they got out of the military. I just— I’m not sure what’s happening.

Internally I felt a huge space within me cleared up. Like I have so much space inside of me since letting go of ghosts and people. I’m not sure I’ve filled that with the relationship I want. I also weathered a few depressive storms and caught them in time before they consumed me. Same aggressive treatment as with my cold. I’m so proud of myself for that!

As you can see, this post is a far departure from the rabbit year. Everything’s just jumbled. I do vaguely remember celebrating the lunar year with my family: we went to eat hot pot and then 88 market. In the summer we went to the renaissance fair one time. We went on a mini trip to Gunn Lake in Michigan for my moms birthday. I showered my dad with a tower of golden gifts for his birthday. I took a medical leave.

Let me look at my pics really quickly to see if I’ve missed something. I went to a free Ateez concert with V. I got to see her and P. I updated my passport. My birthday plans were divided with my friends, my best friend, and my parents (who took me to the book store). I got a haircut and went to a work event. I organized my own work event in china town. I hung out with my girl cousins and watched a Filipino movie.

I saw a lot of theatre: Moulin Rouge, Harry Potter twice, The Lion King, Elf. Got all my makeup and a perfume from France. Baked a cake with Abbie for my dads birthday. Had the baby sister experience with skin care while watching k dramas. Made a heart felt video for my dads birthday. I wrote down and succeeded my financial goals. I bought new shoes and some new clothes too.

I lined up and got to enter the opening of Harry Potter store ; where I met and took pic with a YouTube influencer. I fed ducks in the spring with my parents. I went to a lot of doctors appointments. I spent Jan away from work. I lost then gained weight. Family apparently went to Cheesecake Factory. Saw my friends at a Vegan restaurant. Went with Eonnie to my favorite addiction: Teso life.

Took Uncle J to hot pot and kbbq. Took Abbie to see Elf (magical snowing vip box). Ate duck with parents. Went to a Stay Kids concert. MYT with my mom. Dressed up perfectly for Ren Faire. Has a chill time there with the weather and light packing. Began getting my nails done. Discovered the farmers market and went many times. Got to see my boys be discharged while I was at work.

Bought an iPad and pencil and began Making Of. Went to Christkindl mart and got four of my newly favorite mulled grape juices. Bought a ton of rocks and crystals. Embroidered.

Really, all this jumble of things was my 2025. I’m honestly not ready to let go of it. It’s been a mild hodge podge year for me. I’d appreciate another 3 months of 2025 but it doesn’t work that way.

2026 is the comeback year. I suppose it should be dedicated to my own personal comeback too. I aim to elevate myself and my life whenever I can. Right now it’s all about stabilizing my sleep, my work place, my nutrition, and my exercise. There’s unfinished business: Mikrokosmos, learning Korean, and finishing my embroidering.

It is what it is.

Happy new year!

Happy old year too 🙂