This turkey trot work schedule looks good on paper but today I suddenly feel burned out. I’ve been doing so well all week, and I definitely put in extra time at work. I want to feel proud of myself tomorrow by coming in, but at what price?

Mental health is something so precious that should be protected and prioritized, because it is the well from which I gain motivation to do what I’ve set out to do.

I do have many expenses and things to budget for this month, next month, and next year. And in theory I can power through. It’s really only four hours. I’m only concerned my burned out feeling will compound.

Work life balance is really essential for happiness. If I were off tomorrow, I don’t know what I’d do. Other than help my dad put up the turkey float and meet my friends at night. I’ve been having a great time with my parents.

I don’t want to fall into the pitfall of staying in bed—which can trigger a depressive episode.

So maybe I won’t say yes and I won’t say no to coming in tomorrow. In the grand scheme of things it doesn’t seem like a big deal. But like I said, I have to have a sensitive radar to my mental health.

I’m trying to strike a balance where I can ultimately be happy spending my time where I’m spending it. Right now it’s not looking like work is that place.

I think I’ve been sleeping ok. My sleep habits have been better than last week. Or at least I’ve been trying to get a hold on it.

Anyway, I think I’m ultimately choosing to stay home tomorrow. Saturday there’s a chance I might work and the price to pay is high. I’m sure my burnout will be maxed out.

Now it’s just a question of how I’ll fill my time on my day off to be happy. Technically my day off starts tonight. 🙂