I feel like this whole time I have been preparing to bloom. There have been some changes in my life— mainly be getting back on to the road of health. My spiritual journey as re-begun. The Lord said “return to me and I will return to you.” So that’s what I’ve been doing, and it’s brought me peace. It’s replaced the dread that I was low key feeling whenever I fell asleep.

Now I just sleep. I’ve also progressed by de-brieding my emotions (the things I hadn’t addressed). I’m also shedding off long-time fears of my heart. Saying goodbye to my past and debrieding my emotions has led to a lot of space.

I felt the significant space I created within me. I slept a lot, like a new born. And now I’m doing things I haven’t done before! I’m going to work. I’m forging friendships at work. I’m attending worship services and learning from them. I’m praying. I am taking care of my body as a temple by keeping it clean and sleeping. I’ve improved my work attendance and am even doing overtime. I wake up early in the morning. I even do my makeup.

Things are being done that haven’t been done before. I’m seeking novelty whenever I can. I am reading books that I can learn from. All of these things are inside me and within me.

I want to sense achievement. These things I’m doing for myself are constant wins, which don’t feel as significant as a sudden and huge win. They’re essential to life nonetheless.

I haven’t picked up my hobbies from before (painting, crochet). I’m still keeping up with reading and I still journal. I have this pretty pink journal that I use to talk about my day, myself, and record things that I learn.

My life has been busier since I’ve dedicated myself to making more money and showing up spiritually to God. Yesterday was nonstop. I am learning the importance of taking a break. If my day is packed, I will find ways to take breaks in-between. My adrenal glands deserve a break!

I’m a cleaner me. I’m a spiritual me. I’m a Christian me. I’m a money maker me. I still protect my energy whenever I can.

I’m blooming, and blooming, and blooming.