That’s what Hoseok is. That one time we were in the dance studio he took me down at the count of three. He knew what he wanted and more so he knew what he was doing.

Those two traits are so helpful in dating. The Blood Moon is said to have a releasing type of energy. It was encouraged to let go of things, and to just rest and unfold. I want to do that so I’m pacing myself.

Something that released within me is the fear of getting hurt. That was a big hindrance to me starting to date again. I’ve made peace with the pitfalls of dating. But I refuse to be hurt in the specific ways I was before. Whether it was being done to me or I was doing it to myself. I’ve had a healthy amount of healing and time to grow. I’m methodical now.

I’m ready to date. I have to trust myself to be a good judge of character, to know what I want, to have the courage to dip asap, to have my own world, and to be happy.

I think that’s transformative. I think I’m OK.

Green light.