Sailor Saturn is the harbinger of destruction. According to astrology, it’s Pluto that brings about death and rebirth, and the destruction of certain aspects, people, and things in one’s life. I’ve heard that Pluto is moving to Capricorn, and that has a direct rocky effect for Aries. From my knowledge it means that I will face the big boss before Pluto finally leaves me alone.

People are saying it isn’t a bad thing. From September to November, chaotic karmic cycles are supposed to rear their ugly heads in my life. Pluto will force me to look at everything that’s happened since 2008. I have three months to snip snip ✂️.

I’ve actually begun the snipping right now. I just randomly delete, block, and unfriend people who I don’t like. It’s random because it happens when I don’t expect it. I don’t sit here and make a conscious effort at doing it. Pluto is raring to go so maybe it’s happening on its own.

It’s a popular saying that Aries will be entering its villain era. I haven’t heard anything about when. Will it be during the Pluto encore, or will it be a state of mind you emerge from? For me, as an Aries, I’m going to give into my urge to just go now. The universe understands that.

In essence I’m going to approach September to November as bringing about the death of mindsets, relationships, and anything that doesn’t serve me to the person I am. This is an elevated call to protecting my energy.

The rough side of Aries is that we expend a lot of energy when we’re angry. I lost some major sleep last night because I was so pissed off. I will learn to respond to my anger and channel it into something that positively effects my life. That’s hard. But that’s the intention.

The current person I regarded as a close friend keeps being selfish and it’s brought me to a breaking point. We’re no longer on the same vibrational path. I can no longer include her in the narrative that’s in my life. Like Joy. I don’t know what the future holds. I do know a big part of becoming a villain is breaking apart these energies that do not serve me. I could care less if it ends.

I would rather forget you than be angry. Anger fills me with negative energy.

I would rather forget you.

I’m also learning how to vet guys. I am learning to let go of guys that aren’t going to give me what I truly want. I’m restraining the pick me girl in me. So far I’ve unfriended one, deleted another’s phone number, blocked two others, and erased the text history of the most recent. I know I have to delete the number of my current “it won’t work” interest. I’m just not strong enough to do it right now.

I would rather forget you than play games with my mind. You’re not the one, and a waste of time.

And it’s ok to be sloppy. No one is born running. We crawl towards our goal until we can walk and run. Writing about this encourages me to have a realistic and non-frustrated response to myself. I do have the tendency to write out things I do the opposite of. That’s ok because I recognize it and now I have the power to try and tweak it.

Doing all this while having Bipolar Disorder is going to demand a lot of flexibility on my end. Pluto could fuck with that too. And on this matter, the villain era calls me to prioritize self care.

1. Medications, sleep, healthy food, exercise
2. Being in the moment of fun and pleasure
3. Proactively protecting energy (whether it’s job stress, arguments with people I know, or rage at situations) I have to level up and get a handle on this.
4. Making opportunities for fun and friends

I think I’ll set myself up for success if I use my BD as a calling from Pluto to generally take care of myself.

And then there is Namjoon.

Namjoon is smart, and it’s evident that he processes his suffering. I think I have to approach analyzing my self and my life by using my higher brain to process whatever is currently happening. Perhaps after meditation I can take mindful time to reflect on whatever it is that Pluto wants me to see.

As an adult the biggest hurdle is trying to live my life while doing these things.

I want to be happy.