Even if I went on tour with BTS and did the entire comeback process from studio recording to promo, to world tour, I would only glimpse the pressure of what it is to be BTS.

They have struggles that are universal in nature. Yes it applies to idol burnout, but one can siphon these feelings into the general population.

There are times when we don’t want to be seen. There are times when we are over it socially, and we may feel like we want to be solitary to find peace. It’s not just Namjoon. This feeling is universal no matter to what degree one feels it.

I’m watching Break the Silence. Namjoon visited a place that stores wood that later becomes furniture. This segment was shown during right after their trip to Chicago, at a place called the Nakashima workshop.

Namjoon said he said he became a lover of nature and museums because of the need to hide from the public eye. I naively thought he was doing this things for pleasure. In actuality, it’s his tree branch that keeps him from falling. It’s all coping. He’s coping. Like me.

I always thought Namjoon’s love for Namjooning was really just simply Namjooning. Not so. I feel a little sad about that. I’m in a stage of my life that’s so stress free that I can explore hobbies and do things for mere pleasure. Ma’jooning.

But that stage has darkness and that shadow over me is depression. So I hope we both find peace. Let’s all find peace in our hobbies. Let’s keep coping until it gets better.

I hope we all find this peace too.