I don’t need a love spell to find love. Love is all around me, and waiting for me to choose love. I am love. I love myself. I try to take care of myself, and even when I can’t, I still inherently love myself.

I want a charmed life. I want to live an exceptional life. I want to be extraordinary; like Bada Lee and JIMIN. Those two work hard, and I see from BTS’ 10 year biography that a lot of energy needs to be expended if you want to get to where you’re going.

How has my summer been? Sunny.

I’ve gotten a lot of sun and it’s turned my fair skin a nice light toast color. I like it on me. I’ve discovered new places, met new people, done new things, and overall this was the summer I began to thrive.

It does take energy, and a growth mindset. I’m so proud of myself for being able to do it, despite my brain having the chemical disorder that it does

These days I’ve been falling back, letting things slide and being—- backwards. But like BTS embodies: you can make a comeback anytime you want. And you can configure your own persona.

I’m doing that in some ways. At work I speak up more, I teach and am approachable. I try to set a standard of friendliness. That’s work.

As I grow into my community, I am learning my personal taste in friends and how to communicate.

So I stopped budgeting, began eating carbs, calling off, not going to church, and staying up until 1AM. You can say that I caught a bug. My brain dipped, and I’m ok with that. It happens. Fall, everything fall.

But I got up today and went to work. I ate a salad. I took my medications on time and gave myself a facial. I dedicated myself to sleeping relatively earlier than usual. I am reviving the new me. The Factory Reset continues, the data analysis and reconfiguration continues, the upgrades (however minor they are right now) continue. This is me 10.0

I am new and improved. I try.