“He goes where he is needed.” Is a statement made about Snape. As I read this sentence, a realization hit me. The universe, in all its magic, is sending people back and forth to their destined place, where they are needed.

This website is a BTS-Me blog, so of course I’m going to apply the Snape quote to BTS, then to myself. I felt blah at first because Cali and New York are always getting the attention from BTS, specifically the Exhibition. What about my town?! I keep this hope in my heart that Jung Kook is coming for me, in my own city. Ma city.

Who knows the future? All I can say is that all the strings are in place, and Jeon Jung Kook goes where he is needed, Maybe in a meta- way, there are people in need of being happy and they happen to be in New York. And so that’s where there he is.

Back to me.

I’ve been blessed that the guys have thus-far paid attention to my own city in relation to concerts. They can be anywhere in the world but they’re here, with me. Ma city. I really want to personally meet them. I just want to vibrate high enough to attract the person I want, and need. I think I need to meet Jung Kook Jeon, to set myself free.

Free from what?

I don’t know. It’s not like I plan to pull a “reject me so I can move on” spiel at the man. I know that in order to move onward, our encounter has to happen. Me, Namjoon, Jung Kook, and JIMIN.

Don’t call me delulu if you’re the same person proclaiming such things as “they enter your life when you need them most.” That’s adding as much salience and connection to the guys in your life as I do with mine. So what makes me different if I say it directly? My personal journey is my own.

Back to the statement: “he goes where he is needed,”. This line unexpectedly gave me soothing peace about where all they guys are now. In my first life I needed all of them, and so they came.

This life, as thirsty as I seem, I’m not subconsciously needy. I have things that make me happy. Like reading, the park, writing, my family, my dog, (sometimes) my job, my friends, and making money. It’s all good in this hood.

But still, I beckon the universe to respond to my wants. I want to effortlessly meet and bond with Jung Kook this year. I want to be his her. I want to break the fourth wall.

Want, as in it would make me happy if it happened.

Truly. Good night me.

Good morning Me.