I know that Jungkook sang Stay from the album Changes on his past v-live, but I honestly dislike that song. But I want him to stay.

I dislike changes in general. And today called for a whole bunch of changes. Maybe mercury or whatever the hell planet is in retrograde. Or maybe the universe/higher power (or whatever this reader believes in) is weaving my red strand of fate.

“Maybe”, because the above is thrusting me into wave after wave of change. BTS is suddenly going to the military, a few people I know are no longer on this earth, I’m suddenly in a relation-situation-ship. And I’m experiencing wild, wild, wild insomnia.

Life is rocky, and I’m trusting and hoping that it’s rocky in a good way. I have to be optimistic right? I want to trust myself, and Namjoon also reminded me last night that love is all about trust.

So, I trust in my ability to meet change, in a healthy way. I’m also trusting in myself, in general. I’m going to try my best to stay afloat:

And it’ll be okay.

See? I’m proud of myself already.

I’m also attaching salience to everything possible because I also need exterior hope.

Flowers have been an ongoing theme for me; in terms of relationships and life. So, I saw this flower in the cold (Sorry nature, I picked it), and I’m taking it as a sign to be hopeful.

Hope.

I’ll conclude this post with Hope.

They say when it rains, it pours. I wonder if it’s raining in Busan. I can only hope so. 💐🌦️

Because back here is “snow-showers” 🥴

But wait!

Do show showers being Snow Flowers? 🕺🏻