I’m not sure where my anger is coming from, but it burst out of me like an intense volcano that until now- is still erupting.

I’m annoyed, at best, with my family. And blood relatives. I’ve learned there’s a difference.

But regardless of who they are to me, I don’t understand myself. I don’t know where this well of fury is coming from. What I feel is anger indeed. I’m fed up with being lectured. That’s for certain.

I’ve been so mad that I’ve lost time, energy, and life giving into my emotions. I’ve certainly released a great ton of negative energy into the universe.

Anger doesn’t fit me. I don’t consider myself a grudging person, at least not in an extreme way. And yet these past two days have been extreme. I just wonder why. I have no answers.

I only know that I need to release this negativity from my life. I need to restore balance and peace to my world.

My original plan was distance. But you can’t really distance yourself from a negative emotion if that emotion is too strong. Nonetheless, I’m going to ignore the hell out of this until I can calm down enough to be ambivalent again.

I suspect it might take months. Maybe four.

I’m just immersing myself in whatever I can. I’ll start up a peace mantra tomorrow.

Good night