(Pre) Magic

Magic by TXT is the only song I listened to, and I really wanted to dedicate today’s post to romantic love. This song resonates with me so much. I’ve been single for so long that I’m excited for the magic to happen.

Plot twist! Instead I’ll talk about other types of magic: pharmaca. A long time ago people regarded pharmaceuticals as magic. There are stories that the Greek Gods feared anyone who could manipulate flowers on earth to institute change. They didn’t understand it, and simply labeled it as magic. They were halfway right. In some ways, pharmaca is magical. Yeah yeah, being able to explain a drug’s physiological mechanism of action takes away the magic. But for someone who suffers a disease and is cured, that magic happens for them.

Hell, I hated pharmacology in school too. I feared it. It’s difficult and boring to me. And yet here I am: on earth and relatively pain-free because of pills. Side effects aside, pills make my personal world coherent. Sometimes my symptoms immediately go away, just like magic. So I don’t understand it but I love it.

There are many things I love and don’t understand: top 3?

1. Pharmacology

2. Korean language

3. Existence of life

Yeah yeah. This blog is vomiting kpop-BTS and I know it. Anyways, magic. Get ready for tomorrow because my coherent brain will concoct something up along the lines of love.

For now, eat crumbs lol

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And four days after I initially published this; I pop back in just like magic. I’m still recovering from a bad cold and I know I need to sleep soon: but just some thoughts about love.

1. I realize that my lasting legacy for now is my Mikrokosmos. It’s my love story.

2. Petting my dog grounds me. I love her.

Two disjointed thoughts but I promise it’ll be coherent later. Good night.

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Why is this post so fragmented? I’ll make sense of it later.