There are a few things I wonder

When will it rain?

When will I get out of debt? It’ll be a while. I’ve been hustling so much over the last month. I’ve started really feeling a mixture of burn out and the Blue. It’s partly my carb rich diet too. These days I drown myself in bread and working (ironically for the bread).

Every day feels strangely the same. I’ve fallen into a dark hole where the only light I see is the bright afternoon sun in the hallway at work.

I slept for 20 hours on Saturday. And today my brain randomly shut down. You would think after all that rest I’d be refreshed and ready to hack back at it. But my vibration is low man.

I need me time. Not “us” time, not “there” time, but time for me. I want to just vegetate like I did two weeks ago. I want to get lost in INFP behavior. But these days I feel like “The Rabbit with the watch clock” running everywhere, and trying to cram everything in, all at once.

The logical side of me says to take it one step at a time. Take it one day at a time. I’m sure tomorrow won’t be as bad if I power through it, right? And this seems like a mindful thing to do, since I will have set time off anyway.

My vacation is inevitable. I just have to make sure I don’t cram everything in like the mad hatter that I am. Drinking everybody’s tea.

I think I should just go to work tomorrow. I should comfort myself with the fact that it’s only an 8 hour shift. It’ll be quick and painless. The end result is money and respect.

I can do this. I’ll be ok.