It’s the head of the black water rabbit year , and I am continually called to grow by learning how to flow. Like everyone, I have varying degrees of control issues. Not just losing control, but trying to control events. Jung Kook is the most chill, and I want to embody that chill being. Inhale… Read more

Namjoon went from blue to grey the very same night I slipped. And all I can say is that I’m sorry. I can’t even bring up “it won’t happen after this.” Because I respect him and I won’t make empty promises about uncertain situations. And the multiverse suddenly seems uncertain. I am in the gray… Read more

I only now noticed that my blog website has turned into a one year old! Yup, this baby was born on 01/07/2022, (UTC time) (so unsure of true birth date). I am a grossly inattentive parent-author who has missed my written child’s one year bday. As a belated commemorative gift, I will add in an… Read more

I end my insomnia by asking “who tf is Duryan?” She is a character from The Priory of the Orange tree. I just can’t recall who she is. And I’m actually too tired to read and find out. Durian is a smelly fruit, yes? My question is unrelated to the main Duryan topic, which heralds… Read more

WAM: Words are magic. The videos below are just whispering-updates on how I’m doing, and what I’m up to. I miss you Namjoon, and you Jung Kook. Read more

Poem 1: Closer Your Closer has cast me Far and Away. Far away— i am I, in a sea of Far Blue. Nearer I’ve drowned to swim Closer to you You cast a fish net: so to save but 1 heart. Do my 2 broken fins, swim too far apart? We part. So we part.… Read more

Of course it’s okay. This is my domain and I can do as I please. So today, nothing. Amugeosdo anim. The very next day…. Read more